So, as usual i will say that i wont be long online. But, i tell u la, i cant resist the desire to online now, is like addicted edi. While last time i am sure that i wont addicted on anything, but now, i fail to keep this spirit.
I am considering, that i will become like this, is maybe because of the 6 months in this year, i didn't study. I was working, but actually doesn't work a lot, and actually didn't get much in return.( got a bit la, but quite little.)
1) work as FOC for my dad, means i didn't have a salary, at first. I just like a child, getting pocket when i need. It is good cox i can have higher consume, but i don't want like this, i wanna be a man, i wanna treated as man, so i ask for a fix salary for RM1200 per month. Although it is too little, ya, too little as i am those kind of money crashing machine that wont thing much when consuming. But this can help me to manage my money, just it seems like not functioned very well now.
2) work as promoter for P1 Wimax, the first job i done besides of my own family business. I found that it is suffer to work as such small position and salary, therefore i decided that i must earn many money next time, cox i feel that it is a shame, an insult to me to work for this kind of job. I know, it is not a correct thinking, just i dislike this kind of feeling. And one thing i learn is, the bravery to promote things. This helps me lots in confident, as i dare to talk to pretty girls and i success to have a senior to be my first gf, and my first sex. The confident also helps in presentation i did last week, but now i wont chase girls cox my body shape is gone.
3) work as Distributor for AMWAY, i din get any financial profit from here, bt i learn some social skills, present skills, promote skills and some good thinking, 思想。But i not like the living style of AMWAY ppl, because they keep persuading ppl, washing ppl brain. I am not saying it is bad, and it is a skills & ways to do business, it is also usefull, but i just don't like. I hate these kind of feeling, that they keep giving me the idea that AMWAY is everything, other things in your life can be thrown away. Thus, i have a feel that i am treated as stupid. Haiz....
Ok, this is the work i "done" in this six month, but besides of learning things, i actually didn't serious in making profit. Most of my time i sit in Witchery Ider, 魔力点子。A cafe opened by my friends brother, which is now my friend too, Desmond Yong. I can be said that wasting my time there a lot, untill now also like that, cox there got a good internet connection. I think i started addicted to Online when i start to spend my time after gym there watching PPS. After gym, it is 8-9pm, and no where to go, and at that time most of my friend are not free, those who free doesn't likes to go to place i like, so i have to sit at Witchery Ider. And that time, Shaun, my best brother which know each other since 2 years old, had just loss his dad, so he is not free and not financially conditioned to go out "po" wif me, so i have to spent my time by watching PPS lor...
换CHANNEL一下，今年发生了很多“代志”（dai3 ji3), 让我有蛮多感触……
i)失恋，馨拒绝我，第三还是第四次拒绝我。原因是，她还忘不了英，所以不管我对她多好，给她多大、多诚恳、多好的承诺，她还是不能接受我。这让我领悟了，真爱是要缘分的，不是因为你付出的多，得回的也一样多。常常，我们都是完全的付出，却也完全的蚀本。所以，从2009年3月7日，馨最后一次拒绝我的日子，我发誓，从今以后，只要看到我喜欢的美女，我就不要害怕、不要保留的去追。因为，人生只有一次，反正到老都是变丑的，为何不乘年轻是追个好看点的呢？比较偏激的领悟，但是认真去想却很有道理。（领悟了2个道理）
ii)Shaun的父亲过世，可以说是突然发生的。这让我领悟了，不管你是多么的英雄，只要时辰到了，一切都化为乌有。所以，我常常保持开快车，因为告诉飙车是我唯一有自信可以从死神名单中除名的方法。原因是，我的技术和天赋，让我可以在高速中掌握一切，反而是驾慢车的时候，才是最危险的。从我发生过的车祸，只要是因我而起的车祸都是有一个主因，我驾得比我平时的速度慢。（我的车速每个朋友都懂）唯一不爽的是有些好友，不明白真实情况却一直说我会车祸是因为驾太快！！！干你娘的！！！
iii)手被干断，妈的，整年最气人的就是这件事。好死不死，死人印度鬼在我一个月没有锻炼的情况下，来打劫我的车，还用大木棍打我，虽然我一档就把木棍打断，吓跑了他们，代价就是变OKU咯！！！ 然后，不能练拳，不能GYM,不能游泳， 不能跑步，所有运动都不能做，妈的，害我身材走样！！！
还有好多事情，只是不懂怎样写。
不过，总的来说，算是体会到了人生无常，不管多么英雄好汉，都有落难的一天。不管多么风光，时辰一到，统统不见掉！！！ 所以，我要及时行乐，读好书，找真爱，把美眉，赚钱，买跑车！！！
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