Saturday, October 31, 2009

剑。道 以剑悟道!

《神雕侠侣》第二十六会,杨过发现独孤求败剑冢,进而发现冢中三剑与及四个石片。石片上文:

“刚猛凌烈,无坚不摧,弱冠前与河朔群雄争锋。”

少年人如我们这个年龄层,17、8岁的,满腔热学、梦想。好像没有东西足以阻拦。行事作风勇往直前,义无反顾,却极少顾虑后果。因此,常常闯祸,却需要长辈来收烂摊子。

“紫薇软剑,三十岁前用,误伤义士不详,乃弃之深谷。”

20多岁青年,想法比较成熟、实际。因此行事技巧较少年人婉转。"软剑"比普通长剑软,因此更难使用,需要更高的技巧。可是目的还是要称霸天下,少年所拥有的澎湃热血并未失去,只是实践梦想、目的的手法更有效率。“弃之深谷”表示了天不怕、地不怕的精神,有本钱失去。

“重剑无锋,大巧不工,四十岁前持之横行天下。”

老练、成熟,让人学会了举重若轻、不露锋芒反而威力更大。稳重的行事作风让人得到了极大的成功,“横行天下”说明了这点。无锋重剑、利剑与软剑的分别在于技巧、思想层次的不同,最终的目标还是横行天下。通常成功的人士都是这种的思维,因此大多数人都是在中年时期发达,能像独孤求败版三十几岁领悟这个道理的,通常都是早熟、天性稳重或拥有高超的思想观念的人。

“四十岁之后不滞于物,草木竹石皆可为剑。自此精进,渐入无剑胜有剑之境。“

剑是用来横行天下的工具、技巧。草木竹石皆可为剑,说明了,称霸天下的意愿尚在,只是方法更多更好,就像草木竹石般廉价、四处可寻,却有很好的功用!也说明了,称霸的意愿已经没那么重要,其价如草木竹石般低值。随着时光流逝,就不会再被身外物、名利所控制、影响,此乃无剑生有剑。也可说是,世间红尘一切,都如过眼烟云般不重要了。到这个境界,不管是人生还是武功,人难免会感到寂寞、孤独,因为所得到的成功,让人深深体会到了高处不胜寒的滋味。这种感觉与想法,是目光如豆,只看到小营小利的市井小人、凡夫俗子所永远不能体会的。(我老妈和她的大多数家人!自己没用也就算了,还教我什么“知足”、“惜福”等等让人丧失斗志的狗屁道理。)

Friday, October 30, 2009

告白可以用这个,情人节、生日或周年纪念都可以。

你不像太阳,也不像月亮;
你不是空气,也不是水;
你不是食物,所以不能吃。

但是,

你像阳光般,无处不在地洒在我生命的每个角落;
你像月光般,柔和地包覆着我的心。
你就像我的空气,没了你我会窒息;
你就是我的水,没了你活不下去。
食物和你,就是我生存的必需品。

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

很有感触的句子

九把刀说,“人生就是不停地战斗!”

一部台湾偶像剧,“人生就是不停地失望。”

忘了是谁说,“人生就是不停地等待。”

还有,“人生就是不停期待。” etc 人生就是XXX 的 句子


我说,“人生就是他妈的变态!”

WHY???

因为人生的意义早就被很多人解释成不同的东西,那怎么办呢?
只好统统‘篝’在一起,那不成了变态(Abnormal)是什么?


*篝--念着'kao1', 广东话,kao1 mai3 yat4 cai3

心情语录//Whats on my mind -3,最近

     最近,迷上了小说创作。

因为,憎恨自己十年的懒惰、厌恶自己十年的无能,后悔十年的虚度光阴。


     最近,很喜欢思考人生道理。

因为,突然发现人生苦短,突然发现,已经用掉了二十个年头。

     最近,发现原本的生活环境很不适合自己。

因为,发现自己并不快乐,发现自己还不满足。

     最近,才体会到,什么是“人力有事而穷!”

因为,有时候,不管你多么努力,还是有那种你一辈子都只能抬头望着,只能羡慕的境界。

     最近,我变了。

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

心情语录//Whats on my mind -2,对偶像剧的改观

最近不知道为什么,迷上了追连续剧。

或者,应该说是偶像剧。

像:《终极三国》,《终极一班》,还有《终极一家》。对了,我迷上了终极系列了。

换言之,最近的我,好像有一点反常。因为15岁以前的我,对台湾偶像剧避之唯恐不及,可能是因为偶像剧对我而言就是爱来爱去的那些无聊剧情。

16之后就没那么的反感,可能是我自己也在玩那些爱来爱去的游戏。如果家里开偶像剧,我也会坐下来一起看,只是绝对不会主动开来看,也不会去迷、去追。

一个多月前,KEATSAI 介绍我看《终极三国》。那是我在他家,正好用自己的LAPTOP看PPS。所以,KEATSAI就用 我的LAPTOP开了《终极三国》的第三集,讲的是“关羽”中了“七日贱骨头”然后去求医。刚开始我是兴致缺缺,因为之前一直听我老弟跟我讲《终极三国》的剧情,因为他从我堂姐那里看。从老弟的描述,我感到很“显”,因为听名字就懂是CINCAI拿三国历史来乱乱改,乱乱写,乱乱演。也因为老弟的描述,与三国历史风马牛不相及,什么DOWNLOAD武器,什么铁时空、银时空,什么东汉书院……一头雾水,更让我认定了《终极三国》是废的,无聊的剧集。

但是,当我开始看了第三集后,我就忍不住从头看起。然后我发现,看《终极三国》不要把它当做三国故事,要把它看成一个独立的创作,只是剧中人物名称与部分情节与三国相同。这样,《终极三国》就是一部很有意思的作品。

为什么说有意思?其实,《终极三国》、甚至整个终极系列演出了很多我这一代年轻人的想法,对爱情、对友情、对事业、对思想、对社交,对家人,对爱人等等。虽然剧情是有点废,很多时候看起来好像是为了拖戏,好让戏份做足一个小时。但是,这也是它跟别的偶像剧的分别,绝不使用爱来爱去、你侬我侬、凄凄惨惨或者是浪漫等等的陈腔滥调手法;终极系列是从搞笑、废中带出了想法、意思以及反省,可以说是另类的思想教育。

唯独,这些东西需要有一定的智慧、年龄、经历和正确的知识,经过比对真正的东西和剧中所演出的东西的分别后,才能懂的。因此,它不适合2种人,年龄尚幼小和没有知识的人。
i) 幼小的人,就是12岁或以下,他们的经历、思想和观念还不够成熟,还在初期的建立,因此剧中所带来的东西可能会扭曲他们的观念。所以,我一直禁止我老弟再看。
ii)没有正确知识的人,包括小孩,很多剧中所说的东西,譬如说三国历史,是和正史完全没有关系的,把它当成娱乐随便看看是OK的,怕只怕人们以为那些是真的,那么就惨了。因此,小孩还是最好不要看。至于笨蛋,看看就好了,不要当真,也不必去体会,看完就忘是最好的方法。因为笨蛋也不会了解剧情要带出的意思,多想反而会把不对的知识深印脑海。


我喜欢《终极三国》,除了上述的原因,还有因为它所呈现的爱情故事,可以说是我到目前的爱情史。关羽跟貂蝉跟吕布,刘备跟阿香,曹操跟小乔,小乔跟周瑜,可以说是把我的爱情故事拆开、重组,和调换了一下性别的故事。比较有感受的,是早期关羽对貂蝉的无限制付出和不求回报,跟我的个性一模一样。而貂蝉又不睬关羽,虽然知道关羽对自己很好,却还是喜欢着吕布,和我的遭遇一模一样。可是,关羽和貂蝉最终在一起的结局,却只是我的梦想、我的憧憬,一个尚未发生在我身上的“好报”。

Monday, October 26, 2009

我喜欢的女孩的类型。





心情语录//Whats on my mind -1

Recently quite busy, because exams is coming. Erm, actually is one more week nia, 3 November.

So, as usual i will say that i wont be long online. But, i tell u la, i cant resist the desire to online now, is like addicted edi. While last time i am sure that i wont addicted on anything, but now, i fail to keep this spirit.

I am considering, that i will become like this, is maybe because of the 6 months in this year, i didn't study. I was working, but actually doesn't work a lot, and actually didn't get much in return.( got a bit la, but quite little.)

1) work as FOC for my dad, means i didn't have a salary, at first. I just like a child, getting pocket when i need. It is good cox i can have higher consume, but i don't want like this, i wanna be a man, i wanna treated as man, so i ask for a fix salary for RM1200 per month. Although it is too little, ya, too little as i am those kind of money crashing machine that wont thing much when consuming. But this can help me to manage my money, just it seems like not functioned very well now.

2) work as promoter for P1 Wimax, the first job i done besides of my own family business. I found that it is suffer to work as such small position and salary, therefore i decided that i must earn many money next time, cox i feel that it is a shame, an insult to me to work for this kind of job. I know, it is not a correct thinking, just i dislike this kind of feeling. And one thing i learn is, the bravery to promote things. This helps me lots in confident, as i dare to talk to pretty girls and i success to have a senior to be my first gf, and my first sex. The confident also helps in presentation i did last week, but now i wont chase girls cox my body shape is gone.

3) work as Distributor for AMWAY, i din get any financial profit from here, bt i learn some social skills, present skills, promote skills and some good thinking, 思想。But i not like the living style of AMWAY ppl, because they keep persuading ppl, washing ppl brain. I am not saying it is bad, and it is a skills & ways to do business, it is also usefull, but i just don't like. I hate these kind of feeling, that they keep giving me the idea that AMWAY is everything, other things in your life can be thrown away. Thus, i have a feel that i am treated as stupid. Haiz....

Ok, this is the work i "done" in this six month, but besides of learning things, i actually didn't serious in making profit. Most of my time i sit in Witchery Ider, 魔力点子。A cafe opened by my friends brother, which is now my friend too, Desmond Yong. I can be said that wasting my time there a lot, untill now also like that, cox there got a good internet connection. I think i started addicted to Online when i start to spend my time after gym there watching PPS. After gym, it is 8-9pm, and no where to go, and at that time most of my friend are not free, those who free doesn't likes to go to place i like, so i have to sit at Witchery Ider. And that time, Shaun, my best brother which know each other since 2 years old, had just loss his dad, so he is not free and not financially conditioned to go out "po" wif me, so i have to spent my time by watching PPS lor...

换CHANNEL一下,今年发生了很多“代志”(dai3 ji3), 让我有蛮多感触……

i)失恋,馨拒绝我,第三还是第四次拒绝我。原因是,她还忘不了英,所以不管我对她多好,给她多大、多诚恳、多好的承诺,她还是不能接受我。这让我领悟了,真爱是要缘分的,不是因为你付出的多,得回的也一样多。常常,我们都是完全的付出,却也完全的蚀本。所以,从2009年3月7日,馨最后一次拒绝我的日子,我发誓,从今以后,只要看到我喜欢的美女,我就不要害怕、不要保留的去追。因为,人生只有一次,反正到老都是变丑的,为何不乘年轻是追个好看点的呢?比较偏激的领悟,但是认真去想却很有道理。(领悟了2个道理)

ii)Shaun的父亲过世,可以说是突然发生的。这让我领悟了,不管你是多么的英雄,只要时辰到了,一切都化为乌有。所以,我常常保持开快车,因为告诉飙车是我唯一有自信可以从死神名单中除名的方法。原因是,我的技术和天赋,让我可以在高速中掌握一切,反而是驾慢车的时候,才是最危险的。从我发生过的车祸,只要是因我而起的车祸都是有一个主因,我驾得比我平时的速度慢。(我的车速每个朋友都懂)唯一不爽的是有些好友,不明白真实情况却一直说我会车祸是因为驾太快!!!干你娘的!!!

iii)手被干断,妈的,整年最气人的就是这件事。好死不死,死人印度鬼在我一个月没有锻炼的情况下,来打劫我的车,还用大木棍打我,虽然我一档就把木棍打断,吓跑了他们,代价就是变OKU咯!!! 然后,不能练拳,不能GYM,不能游泳, 不能跑步,所有运动都不能做,妈的,害我身材走样!!!

还有好多事情,只是不懂怎样写。
不过,总的来说,算是体会到了人生无常,不管多么英雄好汉,都有落难的一天。不管多么风光,时辰一到,统统不见掉!!! 所以,我要及时行乐,读好书,找真爱,把美眉,赚钱,买跑车!!!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

没事就想想开心的事。

开心的事,

1)长高了,终于长高了!一年半,终于突破175cm,现在令爸176了!!!

2)Final来了,可以暂时把书丢掉,找朋友去旅行!!!

3)我的车要好了,可以“出院”了!!!

4)干妹妹找到一个不错的男友,不用整天听她烦了!!!

5)我的手要痊愈了,可以做GYM了!!!明年就可以追美眉了!!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

To all the pretty gals!!!

Hi leng lui, erm.......

Ok, first i wanna say is, i know you all are pretty and sexy and cute and so famous, that many guys will die for you.
And i know that i am not those guys that you all like to be boy friend, at least for now. (When i regain my shape then is different story.)

But but but, these doesn't means i will die for you all, just like the others. I can help you if u are in trouble, but please dont seduce me by using ur prettiness, u just have to say please!!!

I can teach u how to programming, i can teach u how to do maths, i can teach u how to solve Physic, but please don't seduce me to do them for u! I also got my things to do, and pls dont spread those unreal message that i am stingy person, just because i am not being seduced by you and do your works!

Anyway, i wanna tell you, prettiness is a super weapon for woman, but please don't use it again and again, because it doesn't works everytime to everyone.

Exam coming, gotta activate myself. Super Sayan!!!!

I gotta boost up!!! I am too lazy now, while the exam just less than 2 weeks.

If this time fail again, i gotta eat shit. And then cant continue in engineering field anymore. have to change to business field.

It is ok la actually, change to business is also my will, cox there is more lenglui.
BUt, engineering is what i wanna do, what i like and it can make a lot of money. I just discover it recently. Business field also can makes many money, and got many leng lui. But, it is no point to let myself regrets just for money and leng lui.

Because, money "shuan shen me", leng lui so what, got money got leng lui la! This is what my buddy told me, she said i am rich, i no need to worry about leng lui. Ehm.... it is quite a right, but i am not thinking that way.

I love physic, quantum physic, science, ballistic, automotive, weaponary, etc, any thing related to science and physic. I am one of those weird children when i was 4 years old, my friends are reading comic books while i was reading missile analysing data. What a freak....

SO, start from now, i swear i will d my best to boost my talent up!!! DON'T WASTE IT!!!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

BITCH, 狗母,猪母,变态,去死 = my 妈妈

妈的,lim bu a cibai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 你奶奶的去死!!!!!!人渣!!!废物!!!!不死也没用!!!!

这些,都是我要骂我的CIBAI老妈的话!!!

妈的,以为自己很伟大!!整天拿那些小恩小惠来讲,载我去COLLEGE,帮我跟老爸拿200块,买电脑给我,以这些小事就要我为你做牛做马,拼生拼死!慢慢等啦!林北可以自己搭巴士去COLLEGE,被老爸骂一顿才拿钱,买给我的LANJIAO电脑有是超级烂!CIBAI, 还不让我UPDATE, SUBSCRIBE INTERNET!!!

妈的, 超级度烂!!!

要我帮你打考卷,可以,但是拜托你一次过把问题都拿来!不要一点一点给!因为林北很多比这些还重要的事情要烦!林北要读书的,很多压力!不可能只做你的lanjiao 东西!!!!

靠!!!!!!!!!

我真的是忍无可忍了!才会POST 出来!

我已经一无所有了,还是被你害的!请你不要在剥削、剥夺我,放过我吧!我不指望你的恩惠,你也重来没对我好过!我只希望你不要再害我了,对,不要再害我了!我已经失去了我的生命,是你害得,我不想连行尸走肉的权力都没有!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

因为你,让我从来没有正常的社交生活,没有兄弟,没有女友,没有童年,没有快乐,没得参与同学的活动!!!是你让我错过了青春,错过了快乐!!!还让我看着我的的最爱离开我,投向别人的怀抱,让我看着喜欢的人,对我说,你是个好人!!!就因为你,从小对我的所谓严厉,害我变得沉默寡言,不善言辞,也不敢主动!害我白白错过了很多的机会!!!lim bu a cibai!!!!

问我什么是母爱?

哼!母字跟爱字有什么lan关系!!!对我来讲,母亲就是虐待我的变态!!!害我的恶魔!!!
不要跟我说,没有你我就不会在这个世界上!!!因为我的人生,都是只有一个苦字!非洲饥民受的是身体的苦,我收得是精神的苦!!!

是那些受尽父母宠爱!!!没有主见!!什么都听父母!!!的孬种的乖宝宝所不能理解的!!!

所以,如果你们没有了解我老妈是怎样的,你们没有资格批评我!!!没有资格讲我!!!没有资格骂我不孝!!!因为你们没经历过像我一般的经验!!!