Monday, September 28, 2009

K.O. SANGUO 《终极三国》

lolz...the first thing i wanna do when watch this movie...
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈…………………………好好笑哦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

这是一部很白痴的电视剧,无可否认!!!
但是,他的情节也还不错啦,虽然用了三国这个名词,但是跟真正的三国没有关系。除了角色名字。

好了,进入重点。

想说的是,片中由胡宇威饰演的关羽,他的爱情观和命运(爱情) 跟我超像的!
是属于默默付出的那一种。不过,很可惜,默默付出的爱是不会得到结果的。因为……还什么因为,就是因为默默付出没人知道嘛!!!

Friday, September 25, 2009

How to cure the LAZYNESS????!!!!!!!!!

Huh, i am lazy, i know that.

I am lazy on the thing that i not like, such as?
Study, wake up early, and doing sit up!!! Still got many things i dislike, but i dislike those by mood. Means sometimes i like, sometimes i dun like.


Erm, how to say? When i dislike a thing, i will automatic feel that doing it is a waste, or what for to do it since i dislike it? And it wont have any effect on my life? ( Obviously not, just i tot)
Then i will start lacking the energy to do it. And the spirit too. ( Spirit is semangat rite?)

Huh, i very admire my dad, he can wake up 9 am everyday, although he just arrive home and sleep for 30 minutes. And you wont saw him with tired face the whole day, but at night...every one is sleepy rite...

I also very admire my friends, Yong Hui, Tun Hao, Loon Han, Joo Lean, Lit Wei......all my friend that have extremely good results......exept those who are a genius, like LIt Wei, but he claim that he is not... so i put him in...
They can sit in front a desk and really study all stuff on the textbook, they wont being distracted and wont give up, untill they finish...er.... i think when i form 2 i also can do that, thats why i jump back to elite class from 2I to 3E... but now, i cant...The only thing i can 坚持到底 is only gym, weight lifting, but my hand broken, can't do it untill next year...

Even my talent, car racing, i also never practise the skills seriously before....
I will feel sien very fast, and stop doing them.....

I know this is my problem that i cant become Top Student in MUFY, in KWang Hua, in Chung Hua, and i willing to solve this problem, or cure this illness...

But hell i cant, i fail, i fucked up every time.....


So, my friend, can you help me? Tell me how to take away this habit...Teach me how to 坚持到底,include 爱情...


TELL ME!!!! WHAT CAN I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Hollow Man


Hollow man, a film that shows every mans desires....wakakaka....

真正的舒畅感

什么是舒畅感?
就是舒畅的感觉。

不是那种,把大便排出肛门的感觉,不是作爱高潮的感觉,也不是累了就躺在床上的感觉。
舒畅,
是在极端的痛苦、极累的情况后,得到的放松;
是在极大的付出、极大的努力后,得到的成就感。

这才是真正的舒畅。
是只有真正的认真对待自己的人,才能感受到的。

坚持到底,
才是得到舒畅,也就是成就、成功,
的捷径。

唯一的捷径!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

诗 + 散文 = 散诗

越是习惯孤单,越接受孤单;
孤单的时候,行进中的人生,好像被按下慢动作一般,变得沉重、迟缓。
所做的一切,做过的一切,生命中的一切,一切的一切的一切,刹那间变得毫无意义;
好像就算完成了,也没有意思,没有成就。

孤单的时候,也是脑袋最胡思乱想的时候。
想这想那,却始终摆脱不了,寻找那个点的欲望。
那个点,人生的重点,人生的中心点,人生的要点,管他的,就是缺乏了一个点。
缺了点,绕着中心飞行的东西,就会被自己的离心力抛开;
人生没了点,就会毫无章法的乱飞,毫无特色;一切就变得枯燥、乏味。

人生,就是要有一个点,才能感到自己的中心。
没有点,就跟我一起去找吧!!!

by泽凯
2009年9月20日,5.24pm
(正在努力的寻找那个点中!)

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Weird experience: occupying a movie theatre by myself. And, passing a Fairlady with my CR-V!

Today is the last day to study, then coming up is a whole week holiday. WHee!!!!

Yeah, as usual, holiday is stands for Hell Of LearnIng DAY!
So, this week i manage to study all of the syllabus thought and missed.

Whats the point with my title? OK, is like this la.

Cox whole week no fun, except gathering, so i go watch the movie, Gamer.
Erm, is a good movie, actions, killings, all i love and some creative there. Go watch yourself.

Ok, here is it. I go TGV Bkt Raja, at 11pm, and buy the 1145pm ticket. And that guy told me that i am the only one who watch this movie, tonight. "Huh? Benar kah? Syok la!" i say.

And thats it, i go in, and the whole theater only me alone. Erm, is knid of weird, and freak, and cold. Because everytime watch movie in cinema, it was like you are human. Now is like, you are the idiot, haha! Watching movie alone in a big theater. And it is a bit scary la, cox just pass the Chinese Jully, just watch "Where Got Ghost", and the ghost mind is quite fresh now. So, i keep turn my head behind, to see whether got "things" onot.

Not expecting something lar, just hope that if those things comes out, please don't use those disgusting looks, please transform into cutie babe first. And then i will......"Aou...!!!!!!" (wolf hawl)
____________________________________________________________________

Next experience, after watching the movie, i go home. It is normal rite.
And then i saw a Fairlady, at Batu Belah, it is also normal as Fairlady is too cheap and can find it everywhere.

Then i thought it will like "piu....!!!" and disappear.
Haiz, useless...Fairlady that just run 40km/h, useless + idiot + stupid + weird...
Ya, weird. Then i remember a story, 3 years ago in an accident, the man driver driving at 50 kmh and fucking wif his girl friend. And they knock the divider, the man's cock...bitten and broken...(yucks...)

I was hoping some thing special inside, therefore i pickup and go wif that Fairlady side by side, and you thought what??? It is driverless, erm... it is driving itself... Transformer???

Hah, just joking.
I saw a fairlady driving a Fairlady.
Yeah, a fucking hot, blonded chinese fairlady.
And she is fucking young, i think same age wif me, or maybe around 19.

Huh, a girl driving Fairlady, while my Rexton crash... Sucks...
And where the hell she get the Fairlady? Her dad? Her bro? Her bf? Or........she steal it?
Nevermind, because thats not mine too...

But, girls, next time if you are driving a sportcar, please go aside lar, don't stuck in the fast lane!!!
Fast lane is just for fast ppl, above 140 kmh, you tot is for sportcar driver meh....you drive sportcar so what, damn slow... fuck off!!!

Friday, September 18, 2009

Computer programming, is hell but i loving it helly!!!

Now, starts the most important thing in computer science.
Things which why i join computer science class in MUFY for.

PROGRAMMING!!!

We learn that, there is 3 major type of programming language.

Machine language, the 01010110 stuff.
Low level. Dunnoe wats that, forget it edi.
And, high level one, the Java, VB, C... which what i learning now...

Erm... is kind of easy, at first, at now, because everything goes with image...
Analysing, design, GUI...

Just a bit complex in the coding, but i love it. Thats what i born to...wakakka...(joking only)
erm... as a beginner, it is quite a lot for me to learn.

And now i not dare to imagine, what will happen to me if i start to learn the most basic opeartion.......the machine language, huh...010101....fuck lar that time...
But no choice la, MECHATrONIC, got a 'tronic' behind, means got electronic....gotta learn programming....


HUH!!! :-< :-(

Sunday, September 13, 2009

This time eat shit liao!!!

Huh, eat shit eat shit!!!
I am not a fly, but i am a shit eater now!!!
Why i admit i am such disgusting??? Because this time english test sure fail!!!

Eat shit, 1 hour write 600 words, holy shit i cant finish it.
I have to end it in paragraph 4 because times up, and the bibliography also cant finish!!!
What can i do??? SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Huh, suddenly so smelly...
Haiz, after release out the shit emotion, i calm down and think back...
Ehm, this time is the 1st time i fail in Literature subject, last time test about novel i also can ngamngam past, cox teacher teaching i am not sleeping...(day dreaming, but still know teacher is teaching)
This time, hell i absent at the day teacher teach us how to do exploitoring essays!!!!
Damn!!!

And then as usual, i swear to god again i wont absent class anymore.
And i swear wif my ass, if i absent again i will not able to shit from my ass anymore, i will use my mouth!!!!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

平凡。传奇

传奇,
是成功之后的事;
平凡,
才是生活的节奏。

传奇,
就像100米冲刺,
很刺激、很耀眼,很累;
平凡,
却像慢跑,不刺激,不耀眼,也不累,
只是偶尔会喘一下气,但是很快又能以轻松的节奏回力。

传奇,
需要无时无刻成为最强;
平凡,
不需要强,只需要一颗心,
知足的心。

真正的传奇,可以满足一个男人的野心、欲望;
但是,
只有平凡,一个人才能以自己的灵魂活下去。

传奇人物总是那么的耀眼,但是他们需要无间断的照顾形象;
唯有回归平凡,才能以自然的姿态出现。
因为,
传奇也是从平凡开始的。

泽凯,
“没有人一生下来就注定会成为传奇,
会成为传奇,是因为无间断的努力。”

2009年9月9日 11时33分
(正在为明日英文考试而奋斗!!!)


Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Saw my body shape now...haiz, speechless...

Today morning, i wake up so early abnormally, 6am. In old days only i will wake at this time cox morning class in secondary school. While today my class at 9.45.

I don't know why, i just can't sleep. Because in my mind, there is a sound that keep telling me that i forget to do something, that i should do it everyday actually. Erm, you ask me what is it? Tell u later, the time i wake up, i also don't know what is it. Because this sound is so blur in my mind, it is like some stupid idiot trying to talk to u outside ur car.

I woke up, sit a while, then stand still. Suddenly i feel i loss something, cox before my arm brokes i do something everyday i woke up. Yeah, i think i am closer to the things that the sound keep telling me. But, what is it?

Ok, i take off my shirt, and then standing in front the mirrror. SHIT!!!! Is this me?????
I shout out, loudly, causes my mom yell at me" siao eh, mai luan la!!!" ( you idiot, shut up)
What i saw? INside the mirror, i saw a bouy. Ya, a bouy, standing there with its mouth open(me lar)

Oh.... Now i now, whats the goddamn thing i forget to do liao, is EXERCISE!!!

Ya, since my arm is broken, i stop almost all of my exercise and gym schedule. I stop the 50 pumping non stop every morning, because my arm cant rily use untill next year. And even the jogging everyday which keep my weight below 90 kg also stop. Now my body shape totally gone, but cant saw it if i am on cloth.

Wait, thats means the weight balance doesn't spoil lar!!! I am 97.5 kg now??????
Walao e....
AND, and, and, my dear keep calling big stupid pig(大笨猪),she is meant it??? Not joking!!!
Walao e.... I still mong cha cha....

Haiz, this time, i have to die hard again...
Cox last time SPM time i also once stop exercise, but only for 1 month, me at that time already consider as wild boar... now... already 3 months, boar x3 = stupid pig........speechlesss.......

So, to rescue myself from the pig nations, i swear to my dear i will start all my exercise except gym from today, cox i still havent recover 100% yet. ( Why swear to my dear? Because my dear is more important and love me than god!!!)

Monday, September 7, 2009

Start creating novel

yo my friends, i am start creating novel and post it in blogger.

Go see it at http://zkai0101.blogspot.com

Saturday, September 5, 2009

我是不是,长大长得太快了?

“哼,赚钱而已吗,酱难咩?”
“唉,搞不懂那些大哥大姐,拍拖酱惨咩?”
“哎哟,爱情罢了吗!!!哪里有酱复杂,面对面讲清楚啦,CLEAR!!!”
“没有朋友就没有咯!有什么了不起。。。”
“做么要读书?读到酱辛苦,会读书的人就很厉害咩?”

以上的句子,我猜每个人都有讲过。
每个人在所谓的“年幼识浅”时期,说的话都是不经大脑的,想到什么就直接炸出来。
我就是这么的一个,典型的炸弹狂。

曾经,我认为只要去想像,什么样的经历都可以知道一个大概。
所以,自以为是就成了老师们给我的评语,也是老妈子用来结束她无理取闹的责骂的绝对必杀技,因为每次她都是理亏的一方,被我炸到没话讲,知道老师给了我这个评语。

这篇BLOG不是用来CONFESSION的,我想说的是......................TO BE CONTINUE.................

没有啦,因为很长一下的,所以要分段来讲啦!

以前,我认为这个世界很简单,一句话就可以搞定了;只是那些白痴死大人,一定要在YES跟NO以外搞一个I DON'T KNOW,或I NOT SURE出来。就像爱情,当时的我认为只要讲清楚,我爱你,我喜欢你,还是我不爱你,我不喜欢你就可以了。爱情片、小说里描写的爱恨情仇,全都是白痴作者在放屁!写爱情小说的人,用台湾时下流行用语来说就是脑残,香港就是QI XIN,马来西亚就是白痴+无聊。

只是,讽刺的是,如今的我完全认同了这些“白痴”东西讲的道理,原因是......我亲身体验过了。

18岁前,我一直认为赚钱其实很简单,端乎一个人的智慧。身边那些一直赚不到钱,或着什么倒什么的白痴死大人肯定是先天性智力缺乏症,才会赚不到酱好赚的钱。(BILL GATES、RONALD BUFETT个个赚到笑!!!)以后长大一定要好好教训这些呆鸟。

现在,妈的我每个月的区区RM1200的薪水还要DELAY!!! 真的应了老妈子的毒誓,看你长大怎样死!!!(真的要死了,拿不到薪水的结果就是在COLLEGE饿肚子!)

小时候整天嚷嚷,长大后要拯救全世界,好像自己是上帝派来的救世主,专门教那些笨蛋白痴无聊大人真正的方法,是怎样的!THE REAL AND CORRECT WAYS HOW THINGS WORKS!!!

现在,西元2009年9月5日,4分钟后就6日,突然发现2009-1991=18,20-18=2,这两个惊人的数据;显示我,18岁了,还有两年就20了,彻底变成大人了!!!跟着,就像ALGEBRA一样,我有SIMPLIFY 2x12=24,24x30=720,720-(8x30)=480,意思是2年等于24个月,也就是720天,而今年已经过了8个月,也就是只剩下480天了!!! 靠幺,我的时间被人偷了!青春长鸟了,不,是变鸟了! 酱快就要死了,CHOY,是酱快就要不能做小孩子了,不能幼稚了,不能没脑了,不能打架了,不能摸女孩子屁屁了............(什么样的感慨?)

唉,真的是“光阴是贱”,对啦,这次用的成语是对的!!!不是“光阴似箭”,因为“似箭”的意思是很像箭,尖尖的......(妈的) “光阴是贱”的意思是,光阴这个白痴真的很贱!!!!!!!!!
WHY? BECAUSE 它乘我们不注意的时候,坐飞机跑掉了!!! 用福建话讲就是“走尬杯”(zao ga bui, 跑到飞) BUGATTI VEYRON、PAGANI ZONDA、2008 SSC ULTIMATE AERO 都追不到!!!(人家坐飞机,你驾车当然追不到啦!!!)

所以咯,现在很怀念做GINNA的感觉。

-THE END-

LAN,刚刚是我的DEAR打的,又不准我DELETE。。。(其实我都还没有正式追她,就整天讲是我的DEAR,还逼我写在BLOG。。。)

我现在一直问,我是不是长太快了?不然为什么我会感到好像不能适应现在的环境?
(“DEAR”去冲凉了,快快打完,快快POST,不然给她看到我的手臂肯定被扭烂!)
好像,一切都很陌生,我的生活好像一直变幻不停,不能定型(“WEEKEND 来DEAR的CONDO是唯一的定型!),以前熟悉了10多年的东西现在全部翻盘!小学升中学时也没这么幸苦,一定是太快了,BEH TAHAN!!!


算了,我只能这么说,算了,要变就变吧!我也做不到什么!
以前总是认为我是无所不能的,经历了那么多创伤、挫折后,才了解,我是多么的渺小;应该说,人是多么的渺小.......



-da end-
(这次是真的,要睡觉咯!!!)


Tuesday, September 1, 2009

致:黄秀美老师

最近才发现,我的华文造诣是足以称霸马来西亚的,为什么现在才懂?已经没有用武之地了,当我踏出光华,踏出了这个我人生中最后一个以华语为媒介语的校园,我练了18年的华文变成了,更单纯的交谈语言。再也没有以前的环境,一个可以让我尽情发挥功力的写作环境。
唉!!!突然觉得,我好没用,辜负了黄秀美老师的栽培之恩。

老师一定很失望吧,从您在5S4毕业班刊上给我的评语,“泽凯:生于书香是家,自小就接触许多中文读物,理应你的华文会比其他同学高一层。可惜,两年,我无法看到你特殊的表现。你曾经想创作,希望现在还一样,有机会天马行空创作一篇小说。我拭目以待...” 可以看出,您是我的伯乐,只有您才认同我有创作的能力。老师,不是我不要创作,也不是我懒惰,而是因为我的创意、灵感,已经在6年的小学、3年的初中评估考试文凭中,彻底的消磨殆尽。为何?您一定会如此的问。那是因为,从我会写字开始,不论是我的华文老师、我那做老师的母亲、还是我的前辈,个个都要求我照着惯例,写一篇了无新意的文章。开始,我不服气,依然坚持我的道路,死也不改变我的写作风格,不断的寻求新意。 但是到了初中,我的成绩开始爆烂,我也不得不放弃我的风格,委屈求全的迎合了考试制度所需的作品,而不是继续使我的能力变强。结果,SPM时期的我,就算只是一页的灵感、创意也写不出,是那种掏空了脑袋也写不出任何东西的感觉。所以我放弃了,放弃了投稿,《长路漫漫》,《学海》,《星洲日报》等等的投稿,我都放弃了。

如今,我被废除的功力莫名其妙的恢复了,但是我也丧失了最佳环境,与最能了解学生作品的您。虽然很后悔,但是我要告诉您,新一集的《长路漫漫》,会有我的作品。
无论如何,希望老师您好好休息,早日恢复身体健康。