Study, wake up early, and doing sit up!!! Still got many things i dislike, but i dislike those by mood. Means sometimes i like, sometimes i dun like.
Erm, how to say? When i dislike a thing, i will automatic feel that doing it is a waste, or what for to do it since i dislike it? And it wont have any effect on my life? ( Obviously not, just i tot)
Then i will start lacking the energy to do it. And the spirit too. ( Spirit is semangat rite?)
Huh, i very admire my dad, he can wake up 9 am everyday, although he just arrive home and sleep for 30 minutes. And you wont saw him with tired face the whole day, but at night...every one is sleepy rite...
I also very admire my friends, Yong Hui, Tun Hao, Loon Han, Joo Lean, Lit Wei......all my friend that have extremely good results......exept those who are a genius, like LIt Wei, but he claim that he is not... so i put him in...
They can sit in front a desk and really study all stuff on the textbook, they wont being distracted and wont give up, untill they finish...er.... i think when i form 2 i also can do that, thats why i jump back to elite class from 2I to 3E... but now, i cant...The only thing i can 坚持到底 is only gym, weight lifting, but my hand broken, can't do it untill next year...
Even my talent, car racing, i also never practise the skills seriously before....
I will feel sien very fast, and stop doing them.....
I know this is my problem that i cant become Top Student in MUFY, in KWang Hua, in Chung Hua, and i willing to solve this problem, or cure this illness...
But hell i cant, i fail, i fucked up every time.....
So, my friend, can you help me? Tell me how to take away this habit...Teach me how to 坚持到底，include 爱情...
TELL ME!!!! WHAT CAN I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today is the last day to study, then coming up is a whole week holiday. WHee!!!!
Yeah, as usual, holiday is stands for Hell Of LearnIng DAY!
So, this week i manage to study all of the syllabus thought and missed.
Whats the point with my title? OK, is like this la.
Cox whole week no fun, except gathering, so i go watch the movie, Gamer.
Erm, is a good movie, actions, killings, all i love and some creative there. Go watch yourself.
Ok, here is it. I go TGV Bkt Raja, at 11pm, and buy the 1145pm ticket. And that guy told me that i am the only one who watch this movie, tonight. "Huh? Benar kah? Syok la!" i say.
And thats it, i go in, and the whole theater only me alone. Erm, is knid of weird, and freak, and cold. Because everytime watch movie in cinema, it was like you are human. Now is like, you are the idiot, haha! Watching movie alone in a big theater. And it is a bit scary la, cox just pass the Chinese Jully, just watch "Where Got Ghost", and the ghost mind is quite fresh now. So, i keep turn my head behind, to see whether got "things" onot.
Not expecting something lar, just hope that if those things comes out, please don't use those disgusting looks, please transform into cutie babe first. And then i will......"Aou...!!!!!!" (wolf hawl)
Next experience, after watching the movie, i go home. It is normal rite.
And then i saw a Fairlady, at Batu Belah, it is also normal as Fairlady is too cheap and can find it everywhere.
Then i thought it will like "piu....!!!" and disappear.
Haiz, useless...Fairlady that just run 40km/h, useless + idiot + stupid + weird...
Ya, weird. Then i remember a story, 3 years ago in an accident, the man driver driving at 50 kmh and fucking wif his girl friend. And they knock the divider, the man's cock...bitten and broken...(yucks...)
I was hoping some thing special inside, therefore i pickup and go wif that Fairlady side by side, and you thought what??? It is driverless, erm... it is driving itself... Transformer???
Hah, just joking.
I saw a fairlady driving a Fairlady.
Yeah, a fucking hot, blonded chinese fairlady.
And she is fucking young, i think same age wif me, or maybe around 19.
Huh, a girl driving Fairlady, while my Rexton crash... Sucks...
And where the hell she get the Fairlady? Her dad? Her bro? Her bf? Or........she steal it?
Nevermind, because thats not mine too...
But, girls, next time if you are driving a sportcar, please go aside lar, don't stuck in the fast lane!!!
Fast lane is just for fast ppl, above 140 kmh, you tot is for sportcar driver meh....you drive sportcar so what, damn slow... fuck off!!!
Why i admit i am such disgusting??? Because this time english test sure fail!!!
Eat shit, 1 hour write 600 words, holy shit i cant finish it.
I have to end it in paragraph 4 because times up, and the bibliography also cant finish!!!
What can i do??? SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Huh, suddenly so smelly...
Haiz, after release out the shit emotion, i calm down and think back...
Ehm, this time is the 1st time i fail in Literature subject, last time test about novel i also can ngamngam past, cox teacher teaching i am not sleeping...(day dreaming, but still know teacher is teaching)
This time, hell i absent at the day teacher teach us how to do exploitoring essays!!!!
And then as usual, i swear to god again i wont absent class anymore.
And i swear wif my ass, if i absent again i will not able to shit from my ass anymore, i will use my mouth!!!!
Today morning, i wake up so early abnormally, 6am. In old days only i will wake at this time cox morning class in secondary school. While today my class at 9.45.
I don't know why, i just can't sleep. Because in my mind, there is a sound that keep telling me that i forget to do something, that i should do it everyday actually. Erm, you ask me what is it? Tell u later, the time i wake up, i also don't know what is it. Because this sound is so blur in my mind, it is like some stupid idiot trying to talk to u outside ur car.
I woke up, sit a while, then stand still. Suddenly i feel i loss something, cox before my arm brokes i do something everyday i woke up. Yeah, i think i am closer to the things that the sound keep telling me. But, what is it?
Ok, i take off my shirt, and then standing in front the mirrror. SHIT!!!! Is this me?????
I shout out, loudly, causes my mom yell at me" siao eh, mai luan la!!!" ( you idiot, shut up)
What i saw? INside the mirror, i saw a bouy. Ya, a bouy, standing there with its mouth open(me lar)
Oh.... Now i now, whats the goddamn thing i forget to do liao, is EXERCISE!!!
Ya, since my arm is broken, i stop almost all of my exercise and gym schedule. I stop the 50 pumping non stop every morning, because my arm cant rily use untill next year. And even the jogging everyday which keep my weight below 90 kg also stop. Now my body shape totally gone, but cant saw it if i am on cloth.
Wait, thats means the weight balance doesn't spoil lar!!! I am 97.5 kg now??????
AND, and, and, my dear keep calling big stupid pig（大笨猪），she is meant it??? Not joking!!!
Walao e.... I still mong cha cha....
Haiz, this time, i have to die hard again...
Cox last time SPM time i also once stop exercise, but only for 1 month, me at that time already consider as wild boar... now... already 3 months, boar x3 = stupid pig........speechlesss.......
So, to rescue myself from the pig nations, i swear to my dear i will start all my exercise except gym from today, cox i still havent recover 100% yet. ( Why swear to my dear? Because my dear is more important and love me than god!!!)