Sunday, August 30, 2009

令我再次心动的女生!!!

此文与DUSUN ECO TRIP相连接,只是重点在那女孩。

在这次的“旅行“, 认识了一个,算是漂亮的女孩。这么说的原因是,她不只漂亮,还很可爱,阳光,和精力充沛。她大我3岁,但不要紧,因为我看起来有28岁。最重要的是,身高165cm,完美。 怎么说,她的五官很清秀,眼睛大大的,嘴巴算是小小的,很可爱的那一型。

她的笑容,是她的招牌,也是她触动我封闭的心的利器。她笑,但不是妖艳的笑,不是诱惑的笑,不是魅力的笑,魅力、漂亮、可爱,那些用来形容女孩子的词语统统都不是;她的笑,是那种很灿烂的笑,很阳光,很温暖。不管你在什么情况,只要看见这个笑容,马上就会精神百倍、如沐春风。为什么不说她电到我?因为电到,只是短短的几秒钟而已;而她对我的冲击(IMPACT),一直到我写这个BLOG的时候还在。

我很喜欢她笑,除了灿烂,还是因为我在她身上看见了我人生中,喜欢过、深爱过的女生的笑容。
我的意思不是她是“她们”的统合,其实她的笑跟“她们”完全不同,只是当我见到她的笑容,就会想起和 “她们”的回忆,然后发现,其实我不必为了“她们”留给我的痛苦回忆而痛苦。当初的我,也没什么资格去要求,因为根本就是烂人一个,笨猪一条。

这些的痛苦回忆,是造成了我如今封闭的心,令我不敢在爱情里采取主动,令我自惭形愧陪不上我喜欢的女孩。是她的笑,像一把钥匙把我的心扉打开。让我坦然地去面对我的痛苦回忆。

我想起了很久以前,当我和“杨桃龟” 很要好的时候,那是在她知道我喜欢她之前。杨桃龟的笑很温柔,好像可以给你无限的鼓励,让你从万丈深渊爬起来。就是这个笑,把我从一个不会做乘法的五年级的数学白痴,变成了如今有资格成为电脑程序专家的学院生。杨桃龟,我不确定你还记得这个昵称,这个当年只有我用的昵称;我只要你知道,你是影响我人生的最重要的人,也是我第一个、最深爱的人。

小妮,我人生中,最想疼爱、保护的女孩。她的手,是我最想握的。细细的、嫩嫩的,很想小女孩的手。每次我们牵手的时候,她总是不知不觉的抓住我的大拇指,因为我的手掌对她的纤纤柔荑来说,是巨人掌。我很喜欢她这样抓着我,因为感觉到她很需要保护。还有,她有这个习惯,其实是因为有一次,我的手掌心在帮她帮绳结的时候割伤了,她为了避免弄痛我才抓住大拇指。(其实如果能够握到美女的手,多痛都值)

猪猪,就是在我关闭的心门上加锁、爆痛的创口上撒盐的人。但我不怪她,只怪我太迟出现在她的人生,一切只能说是注定的。我很喜欢她的笑声,听起来像银铃一样,很清脆。

现在,这个女孩,就叫她MAY吧。
MAY 的出现,让我的心又起了浪潮。让我再次感到了爱情的感觉,我曾经发誓不再相信、不愿在体会的东西。

Go DUSUN ECO for a two day trip, had a new gain at there!!! AWESOME!!!!!

Yesterday, 29 of August, i go a trip organize by teachers of SJK(C) SOO JIN, and i was being cheated at 1st.

Why? Because at first i thought we are going to new place, and i heard got paintball game, then i keep thinking how to "SM" those girls.

But before few days from the trip, SHAUN my brother suddenly call me, told me that we are going to DUSUN ECO... "diu lo, this time sien liao lo, i win all the match liao lo..." in my mind. Although it is quite sien, but i admit that it is very interesting when you go play at DUSUN ECo with a bunch of ppl, of course got leng lui la!!! No leng lui no syok, 1 of my philosophy to camp activities at place like DUSUN ECO.

Alrite, lets go into point.
Yesterday morning, i wake at 10 am, helping my mom repair her stupid CRV, bath and packing.
11am, i go SHAUN's house, then we go to SJK(C) SOO JIN at 1130 am.
Arrive there almost 12pm ++, cox SHAUN drives damn "fast"!!!

Then we go lunch, wait for those PRINCESS...blablabla...
then we move our ass to DUSUN ECO...
this tie the bus driver are more pro...

alrite, 1st activity at there, sure is rakit. I go for 3 camps before this at there sure play rakit 1st.
"HOHOHO...rakit arr, i win liao lo... whole team only i know how to do the boyscout thing lo...ngekngek..." and luckiest is, my team leader is a super la yeng akua, then i am in charge of all of the action thing. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA... i wanna laugh edi... sure win liao!!!! wakakakakakakakakakakakaka....................................................................................................

in this rakit thing, i teach my teammate the basic tie, node or ma node, dunnoe la, forget the name edi...
blablabla, my team is the fastest to build the rakit, and the most though rakit, cox our rakit never spoil from start to beginning...
then u know edi lo, my team finish the match in champion...blablabla, nothing to say bout this, cox i sure win de ma...

the most important is, i met a girl. haha, a girl. Who is older than me 3 years but looks younger than me. i was so..... impressed, to her shiny smile, and those eyes, which is very high voltage when she smiles....althought she is not a very gorgeus girl, but she have the sweet look, her own beauty characteristic...and she is the type that you wont felt boring althought seeing her everyday...and she is very energetic, she walks like a bunny, jump and jump and jump, cute... and she can do every hard action i gave to her, sometimes even better than some guys... especialy CADET POLICE nowadays, haiz...where is the police we built last time? haha, joking...

alrite, nothing much activity to describe, cox is a trip organize y old ppl...
next day, we play, PAINTBALLS!!!! wow, awesome, DUSUN ECO got paintball edi, syok ler...
it is just like counter strike la, u hide, u aim, u shoot, and u get shot...
i shot 2 ppl out of 4 of my team, i shot the 1st with sniper skills when i 1st come out frm the shelter, and another at the end of the game, by headshot. But that feller is quite dumb, he/she(dunnoe cox mask is on) still shooting at me after he/she is "dead"...

yeah....
we win again...
afte that we pkay obstacle, the game that i most hope for...
cox can "pok mong"...
haha, no la, is because can see many princess play hard and rough, wakakakaka...

It is time to go home, on the journey i was planning to get the hp number and msn of her, if she have one. But, i forgot!!!!!!! Kao!!!!! It is the bus driver fault, on the genting highway he drive the bus like i drive evo, can u imagine? a bus, keep cornering sharp and get over cars... huh... i swear in my mind, if anythng goes wrong, we had an accident, i will kill the driver 1st before saving the ppl for sure!!!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

人生目标...

曾经,老师告诉过我们,人生要有一个目标。
人生目标是很重要的,因为有了目标,我们才会尽全力去拼,不会白白让宝贵的时间流失。
(小学生的文章)
我很同意人生要有目标,因为我亲身体验到了,茫无目的的那种怅然,是非常的无助;同时也会感到莫名的罪恶感,感到自己把时间、体力都浪费了的罪恶感。
六个月,SPM结束后我等了六个月,才去SUNWAY上课。这段时间我美其名是为老爸工作,其实我只做三样事情,享受、CLUBBING 和花钱。
这段时间,我的生活可以说是TOTALLY颓废跟堕落。一点方向感都没有,不知道要读什么,梦想好像离我好远。
才知道,我是多么的空虚、寂寞。才知道,周星驰说出 “人如果没有梦想,同条咸鱼有咩分别!”这句话背后是多么的惆怅。才明白,人生目标对我的重要。

曾经以为,我找到了我最想要的目标,就是得到那时候我最爱的女孩的爱,的一次机会,一次让我好好的爱她的机会。
我知道她还是放不下他,也知道她对男生的恐惧。
我不介意,不在乎,因为我已经习惯了“我爱她,她爱他,不爱我”的辛酸滋味,从我第一次喜欢女生开始。
我只想给她温暖,给她依靠,给她治疗心灵创伤的药,给她我的爱。因为她的他不爱她。好乱,爱情就是乱七八糟的一团乱!!!
最后,我还是放弃了,因为我知道了,我在她心中的分量,永远都不够一个伤害过她的男人,只因为我太迟了,太迟认识她。

更久以前,有好几年了吧,当时后刚刚开始了解这个世界,刚刚开始注意谁是主演,谁是主唱。
不知道为什么要辛辛苦苦的读书,汲汲营营的为课外活动奔波,整天就只是窝在家里当个痴肥宅男,也不懂照顾形象的重要,就这样的一直肥下去。结果,从未来的帅哥变成未来的超级大肥猪,也就是你们刚刚认识的我,跟后来也就是现在的我是两个极端。这段主要是在讲当时后不懂目标是啥米lan!!!

现在上课了,原先还以为可以在课堂上找到目标。或者在College的美眉身上找到目标。
哪里知道,了解了MECHATRONIC和BUSINESS是读啥米lan后,只有更加犹豫不决,不懂那一边比较适合,只好决定到了MONASH拿double degree.
讲到美眉,靠!!!
整个program华人美眉加起来十指手指都算得完,算了吧!不懂是哪个夭寿仔跟我讲SUNWAY有很多美眉。
所以,只好吃回头草咯,回去光华看看咯。
本来只是打算看看,跟junior打打招呼;哪里知道回到光华才发现,小妹妹们个个都发育了!变成小美女了!哇!!!很后悔当初为什么没眼光,快快跟几个future tense的小妹妹打好感情,现在好下手,唉!!!
当初·蛮有feeling的可爱小美女又被人追走了,真泄气。
不过,终于让我完全了解了“高瞻远瞩,目光短浅,有眼不识泰山,和女大十八变这几句成语,谚语。

这段是在讲,要定对目标,有了目标就要快点去拼!!!

by:泽凯
深夜无聊就来blog一下,
靠北我自己一下。
靠!妈的!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Fast and Furious 5- Subang crash

yeah, what u see is real, and is my car, i am the driver.
Yesterday, afternoon, i am on the way to Sunway University College, to attend the Dodgeball Club meeting, at 2 pm.

At Subang Jaya there, near Police Station and Neway, got a sharp corner.
Everytime i past that corner safely.
But today, it is raining. So i slow down, drive with a turtle speed of 50 km/h.
In old days, this is the safe speed to drive in rainy day.

Now here comes the problem, i not notice that my rear tyres is gone off, 90% botak!!!
Then because of the momentum inertia, blablabla, my car started to slide. At first, i didn't take it as serious problem, cox i am an amateur racer, drifting is what i do when i race.

My car slide, with the rear side to the left, while that time i was turning to left, things go so normal, untill i turn the steering to opposite direction.
In few cases last time, i succeed to make my car go back on route. This time, the stupid tyres that botak, cant gain friction at the rear end. Then, shit lo!!! Front got friction, back no friction, whole car loss control lo!!! Then the car turn its head around and crash the divider, fly out from the small bridge and land on another side.

Luckily, i watch many movies, haha, when i saw the car is turning upside down, i quickly out my right hand on the roof, so that i wont fall from my seat it when the car stop. Kids, dont try this at home, 哥哥有练过的哦!!!

My feeling is like Christian Bale, in Terminator Salvation, when his helicopter was crash, at the start of the movie.

Monday, August 10, 2009

the poster



see, sexy tight ass....

G.I.Joe, sexy tight ass....

eh...when i watch this movie harr???
shit, forgot.... something like friday, dunnoe la, forget it...

anyway, GIJOE gives me an supreme 1st impression, the sexy tight ass of the girl, on the poster....
damn...i said inside my heart, again tight costume? like batman or superman tv at 1980s?
gosh....can see their nipples......haha.....
don't know why, i got a feeling that i am reading a porn advertisement when i saw that poster.
damn hamsap guys..............................

but, when the movie came along, i was fully enjoy it....
because the technology they using in the movie, is stuff that i have dream since i know science....
Human Body Accelerater, cool man... if i have 1 of these then i don't want buy car edi, everyday can sleep late, haha....

anyway, you may thought these things are impossible to made, but i tell u, USA started to do these stuff since 1970s, they din show out just because the thing they build still not as perfect as the movie 1, and they wanna let the whole world thought these is nonsense..... classic american government thinking......

Monday, August 3, 2009

Huh, exhausted...

exhausted... nothing to says.... just exhausted...